30 SEPTEMBER
i'm really stressed. and assignments and all are flooding in. this just spells trouble for me. i am so not good at mixing with people, what's more doing assignments together when each of us has different working styles.
after dinner with yiru, i forced myself to walk into the hall foyer, which was crowded with the hall residents. i want to sign up for some activities and interviews for the various sub-comms positions. i'm not enjoying this at all. i did it all in hope that i get to stay in hall next year. i suck at socialising so u know how much fear i had to contain and brace myself to walk into the crowd when the people there are so rah-rah?! i had been having this vision ever since i entered university, where someone would hold my hand and give me support at such occasions. but the person had never once appeared. i think depression is coming for me :(
29 SEPTEMBER
now things don't seem very good between grace and i. she is quite pissed with me sleeping late at night because she can't sleep with any light in the room, not even the one from my laptop screen. now, am i suppose to deal with it?! that is your problem, no? i went to bed even with u talking to your bf via webcam and the room light switched on. don't be unreasonable!
27 SEPTEMBER
it's the start of the week, when i have all the work undone from the weekends. i had finally started to read a little of my textbook, and as a result, i didn't do my tuts. i am trying to pace myself and get used to the university life. i am so damn not used to studying at the beginning of the academic semester! OMG! what culture shock i am experiencing! not to mention, the stress in school.
as if school wasn't enough for me to deal with, things are going wrong between my family and i. my mum disapproves of me joining windsurfing as my CCA. and we had a fight. after that i was trying to do my tut, but the fight bothered me so much that i just can't concentrate. please, cut me some slack when u are not helping at all. thanks.
18 SEPTEMBER
i think i am nothing to u...
8-10 SEPTEMBER
been out almost everyday after my lessons! OMG! my life is so happening! well, i just can't get in the mood to study -.- still in holiday mood. i know, it's a really bad thing.
had a tour of the school compound at 11.30pm! AWESOME! my friend knows the school like the back of his hand! but then, because he is so good, he showed me all the shortcuts, 'dungeons', etc. i end up not knowing where i was 'cause i seriously have a problem recognising the blocks... all i remembered is how to get to the bookshop -.- good enough, i need to buy my textbooks anyway :p
RANDOM POST
'i am such a player. i think of one while in the arms of another.
if he ever finds out and got hurt, i'm sorry...'
--friend X
7 SEPTEMBER
last night was the 1st night grace and i spent the night together in the hostel. god, it's nice... we were like 'good night!' and went to bed together :D
we both woke up at about 7.15am. we each prepared ourselves--bathe, get changed, i grabbed an energy bar and we went out together. we had to print our notes so we headed to the library in the school of communication studies, then to lessons together. what sweet feeling! i totally love the idea that we are in the same tutorial classes for all core pre-registered modules this semester. i've always loved the idea of going to school from the same home with my friend. now it's fulfilled! man, i'm so thankful!
i left the room in late afternoon when she came back from her french tutorial. i left her alone for dinner! OMG! i feel damn guilty!
3 SEPTEMBER
'officially' moved into the hostel. left my mum in the room to clean up while i was attending the freshmen welcome session. i didn't mean to exploit my mum like a maid, she just volunteered. na, just joking. i am super bad :x i feel that karma is coming T_T
got to meet my roomie Grace for the 1st time. first impression was like OMG! she has a head of golden strands and she behaves like an american. man, she seems hard to handle and chu's been telling me to protect myself. awww, isn't she sweet!
anyway, she's freaking rich i reckon. SHE TOOK A CAB FROM THE HSS BUILDING TO THE HOSTEL 'CAUSE IT SEEMED THE INTERNAL SHUTTLE BUS WAS NEVER COMING, according to her. i took the shuttle bus 3 times today?!
on a side note, chu's been feeling that she is going insane and that i am with her. well, i wouldn't mind if it's with her. I LOVE U!
