30 OCTOBER
went for windsurfing practice session, only for a storm to come the moment we were about to start. this is no fun, not when i have had this dying urge to go out to sea! damn, the practice was called off.
contingency plan? yeah, poker cards. this new member, a swedish guy, taught us how to play their poker game. cool! why do i not understand the rules at all? so i threw cards out randomly, 'cause i don't know what is going on? :x
after that they played Dai Di! omg, another game i don't know how to play?! actually i don't know how to play any card games except uno?! so i just packed my things, and went to bathe :p
then late lunch at bedok hawker~~~ aijia always gets so excited when food is the focus. man, isn't she cute! XD we had fishball noodles, BBQ chicken wings and cuttlefish kangkong... TASTY! :D
after that was buffet at yio chu kang with my relatives, to celebrate my grandma's birthday... more food. seriously, no exercise yet i took so much food! i was eating like crazy there too, haha! never unestimate a girl's appetite :p
anyway, here's something to highlight... 2 OF MY COUSINS ARE SO GOOD LOOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ARE THEY MY COUSINS?!
came back to tampines, joined the senior citizens' drinking sesssion... aix, my aunt had to tempt me with the alcohol! I WAS THE ONLY YOUNG ONE?! thank god Benny came some time later! then i was probing into his relationship matter :x
beer is really no good for me, it keeps me awake! what is wrong -.- went to bed at 5am. this is not even funny!
28 OCTOBER
melissa is so nice to help me with my assignments :) i never know i will ever find someone like that in university. love u to bits!
27 OCTOBER
hello, dear friend, how about u stop instigating me to do funny things when my roomie is around?! u seem to enjoy the thrill -.-
26 OCTOBER
got back my quiz and assignment for HG234--Structure of Modern English. CRAP! WHAT KIND OF SHIT RESULTS IS THIS?! I GOT 2 OUT OF 15 MARKS FOR MY QUIZ AND 11 OUT OF 20 FOR THE ASSIGNMENT! and it's not like it's difficult because others were scoring full marks or near full marks for the quiz and like 15 for the assignment! I TOTALLY SUCK! i enjoy this module alot, but i am just not scoring! have to kill myself soon, maybe by swallowing dettol, my favourite type of liquid in this world. dying by what u love best is such a bliss :D
OMG, i was just complaining to my roomie how annoying the neighbour was 'cause they brought so many people back into the room. i opened the door to check out the commotion, only to find more than 10 pairs of footwear outside their door. so i opened the door widely for her to see. and she said 'close the door! we'll call the security.' then i was so shocked and she went on to search for the telephone number online and dialed the number. she told me to make the call but i didn't want to, so she did, and SHE USED MY NAME! how nice!
anyway, the security came and knocked on their door, and the people left. i felt so bad 'cause i didn't mean to spoil their fun. and doing that to my neighbour, i just don't like the idea, they aren't that bad afterall. but well, what's done cannot be undone. but inside me, i was apologising to them.
hmmm, i think i am officially in the main comm of the windsurfing club? it's the first time in my life i ever like my CCA and is willing to serve the club :D guess i found something i really like? thanks for introducing this sport to me, i'm really loving it! :)
didn't know having a CCA is so fun!
25 OCTOBER
u piss me off so much. i always get so irritated talking to/messaging u, yet i always want to contact u. my life is full of contradictions because i am such a dumb fickle-minded person! will someone slap me NOW?! i need to snap out of this!
24 OCTOBER
windsurfing today was awesome! we first started with NO WIND -.- our club ex-president was returning his equipment when we were about to head to the sea. 'NO WIND!' he exclaimed, and i think he left right after that...
ok, we each got our equipment into the sea, and... WE SAT ON OUR BOARDS,DRIFTING IN THE WATERS AND WE WERE CHATTING -.- we individually uphauled, but the board wasn't moving much. salute the SIM windsurfers for being able to move into the open sea by pumping. honestly, they are really skilled! i hope to become like them soon! even the beginners were able to sail out to the open seas!
after like what felt like half an hour, we each 'self-rescue' or swam with our equipment further to the sea and we uphauled again. there was a little wind this time, so our practice session started.
i was using a different windsurfing board from before, 'upgraded' to the Mistral. the seniors thought i could try it out :p damn, it's so difficult to balance on it. it's narrower than the one i used to use and the mask base seemed to be different too. my CG was like all wrong!
anyway, i managed to surf out to sea~~~ but I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TURN BACK! i got carried by the current and the wind to somewhere near the NSC, where i see the sailors! attempted several times to turn my board, but to no vail. Jonathan my senior told me to follow him back, but I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL THE DIRECTIONS OF MY BOARD AND SAIL! LOLLL!!! CLASSIC :p
so, i waited for the rescue boat to give me a lift back to where i started :p then woohoo! i went out to sea again! cool! the further out into the sea u go, the stronger the wind! and again, I DRIFTED OFF AGAIN! but this time, i managed to turn my board a little, and surfed towards the place where i started. OMG i managed to catch the wind and i was surfing across the water at quite a fast speed (for us beginners), and i am loving it! i got to try out by myself how the different positions of the sail affect the direction and speed. ok, in the attempt to move inshore, i failed, AGAIN! the wind was coming from inland this time. so, THE RESCUE BOAT came again XD back to shore, Jonathan was like 'so how many times did u get ferried back by the boat today?' and i said twice. he laughed his head off! he said his record was once a session, so i broke his! well, whatever, it was fun :p and i always make friends with the other 'demsels in destress' on the boat. WAHAHAHAHA!!! i am infamous~~~
i feel that i am getting the hang of it! can't wait till the next practice session! i want to master this and speed off on the water!!! no wonder my friend said that he prefer windsurfing to sex. i guess i might just feel so too! (though i haven't got any experience with sex yet) :p
23 OCTOBER
went to Spooktacular at Sentosa with the windsurfing people, namely aijia, ashraf, shun xiang, jade, benjamin and his girlfriend. WOOHOO! i am becoming more sociable XD i didn't know having a CCA could be so fun~~~ i asked to join the main comm. think i just looked for more work?! but well, i guess i want to do something for the club, i don't want it to end up like that of SMU or the direction NUS is heading towards :x
i've always have high expectations from my friends who were from JC previously, like their work quality should be good, since their education system were steered towards preparing them for university. but when i see their work quality and how they do projects, i just get so pissed sometimes. am i the one wrong, like it should be their way, or i am the one right and they suck? zzz polytechnic students ftw! i still love poly students, more flexible...
7 OCTOBER
as i've always said, here it goes 'JOJO, I LOVE YOUR BLOG!!!' always is a stress relief for me. not that i get pleasure from your encounter, but your words and expressions are awesome!
Everytime before I go overseas, I leave behind last words in case I don't come back. Haha. And here goes.
If shit happened, it's okay. I hope it only happened to me. It's nobody's fault and you all don't have to be too sad. Just a little will do. I like the idea that people get a little sad if I leave. Please bring me back on SQ and not some lousy budget airline which delays its flights by three hours. I cannot wait. Love one another and be happy ya. I love you.
PLEASE, COME BACK SAFE! I DON'T LIKE TO SEE PEOPLE IN WOODEN BOXES!
6 OCTOBER
aix, attended some dumb hall AGM and missed out Ferrum's gathering to celebrate kenneth's birthday! can't believe it -.- only after the meeting then i realised it's not compulsory... zzz damn lame!
5 OCTOBER
i am really so relunctant, but i think it's time i stop deceiving myself. I REALISED I HAVE COMPREHENSION ISSUES?! WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO ALWAYS DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS TAUGHT DURING LESSONS! and even during project discussions, i don't see what is going on! i feel so dumb! i feel like dropping out of school! T_T a new environment where it's so hard to make friends, where everyone is like passing clouds, where the school work is so tough and the workload is insane, where there is no one here for me. I don't belong here...
4 OCTOBER
once again, grace and i are at odds again. we are still at the issue where she is not able to get to sleep with even my table lamp switched on. now instead of her wearing the sleeping mask, she wants me to use a table lamp with adjustable head. i mean, it's YOUR issue u can't sleep in the light, why aren't u the one doing the adjustments? i can go to bed even with the room light switched on and u chatting with your bf on webcam...
on a happier note, i met up with the guy i like, someone whom i feel very comfortable talking anything to. it's been like 2 months since we last saw each other and i'm really happy we had some private time together. he sent me an sms the previous day telling me he is coming to NTU for some business and could meet up with me! what more can i ask for! seeing him just made my day! i hope we meet up more, though i know that's quite impossible...
1 OCTOBER
i am not enjoying school at all. NOT 1 BIT! i miss the times when i always have my good friends around me, whom i can really depend on for anything. i miss my dear friends so much! what i want for children's day, i want my friends with me! there's nothing more that i want now! JOJO, DAWN HUIJUN, YIRU, NAT, CHU, WHERE ARE U~~~!!! T_T
