27 NOVEMBER
wah, slip of the tongue! i just told my sister a secret! zzz don't talk to me lah! -.-
omg, reading about others' fetish... ... is amusing :x wth, why am i wasting my time on this?!
26 NOVEMBER
submitted my HG210 assignment late! fuck!
22 NOVEMBER
omg, don't scare me like that! haha, but i'm glad we are still good and going :D
20 NOVEMBER
i somehow feel that u are avoiding me... should i know that u mind it so much and that it will spoil the friendship we have, i wouldn't have done it. i love it that we can talk about anything and everything, u are the first for me. i'm sorry for what i've done... if only i hadn't... screw it... i hate myself!
18 NOVEMBER
seriously, don't ask me why, but i am listening to a christmas song now, and i realised OMG, A YEAR HAS PASSED!!! IT JUST....... FLEW PAST!
somehow, i feel so empty today, i wanna look for someone to talk to, but i don't know who to turn to. everyone is so busy with school work, and i just feel like crying.
on the other hand, while i am getting along fine with my roomie on the surface, i am not comfortable with her deep inside. she has this over-bearing aura and she's kinda fearsome. i've been trying to look for other friend's room to go to, at least to study, but to no avail...
and she keeps asking about my grades. hello, i don't like competition, so can u not bother me? i like peace and time alone, just keep skyping your bf and leave me alone...
17 NOVEMBER
It's Hari Raya Haji! it just means break from lessons!!! WAHAHAHAHA!
I wanna see your Peacock, cock, cock, your Peacock, cock
Your Peacock, cock, cock, your Peacock, cock
Oh my God, no exaggeration
Boy, all this time was worth the waiting
I just shed a tear, I am so unprepared
You got the finest architecture, end of the rainbow looking treasure
Such a sight to see, and it's all for me
this song is staying...
u just have to piss me off everytime i sms/speak to u! zzz i have never met someone like u! -.- now, if u would just keep your distance, or change your bloody attitude!!! u just had to spoil my wonderful day!
don't always ask me if i am angry after u did something. if u think i am/ought to, then please don't do it...
15 NOVEMBER
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! i scored A- for my Astronomy test!!! i am not greedy, this is just right! :D
13 NOVEMBER
Dawn honey, my deepest apologies i wasn't able to make it for your birthday celebration. it's your first birthday since our poly graduation and i already missed the gathering. i am so guilty about it! :( i've been trying to work out my time management. hope to meet up after my exams soon, i'll make-it up! T_T
12 NOVEMBER
during project discussion, grace suggesting watching porn -.- she always has to mention rape, sex, sext, porn, etc... she's always like 'hey, this place is so scary, later get raped.' she seems interested to be the victim :p
project meetings! oh god, we were going high, then when we get down to work, we all almost fall asleep...
at the meeting, we were all so noisy and rowdy. after that, grace and i returned back to our room. her mum is picking her up and she packed up and left soon after. suddenly, the room became so quiet and i was very uncomfortable with that. i used to like it when she is not in the room. perhaps it's 'cause i know she is just away for a while, so i can enjoy my peace for a while. but today is friday, she won't come back till monday noon... lousy me is just so bad with loneliness and silence...
feeling depressed that i have to skip windsurfing tomorrow because work all the way up the bottleneck. windsurfing~~~
11 NOVEMBER
OMG! i thought at least Astronomy could help pull up my grades, but not anymore! i screwed up the test! 30% of my grade!!! T_T
i have no idea what the shit is astronomy if u ask me... it's alot of physics, and seriously, physics and i have never clicked in secondary school, and it seems not now too :(
right before the test when i was still looking through the mock paper, i called my brother and asked him about gravity. i am hopeless
thanks Li Chung, for enlightening me on the astronomy! god, i should have been more thick-skinned and looked for u right from the start! i know that u are learned about it but i am afraid to trouble u, knowing that u have been busy with projects yourself.
realised since secondary school, i have the wrong concept about the equator, north and south poles, etc. -.-
u know how comforting and blessful one feels when a friend who knows u need help reaches out for u? "alicia, HG101 test is next week. U want to ask anymore questions before then?"
i've asked to meet her up previously because i really couldn't make sense out of my lecture notes and i needed her help. and this time, knowing a test is round the corner, she texted me the above message :) she's such a sweet girl!
grace went dinner with her cousins, and bought dinner back for me while i slept! how sweet XD awww, don't u guys want roomies like her~~~ :p
10 NOVEMBER
despite having a test the following day and lots of revision left to be done, i joined the starhub little gathering at alison's room in the afternoon. bo xiong, yong cheng, yiru and alison were there. HAHA! guess friends are still very important to me, and what's more i am loving these people more each time we meet. i've never known colleagues could become such good friends. they make me feel so comforted in this unfamiliar land NTU. i feel that at least there are still friends around to go through university life with me, and we can meet so often :D it just ease a little of my insecurity :)
people who are always so busy and can't meet up, go away! u are never there when i need u :'(
7 NOVEMBER
there are no words to describe how lousy of a windsurfer i am -.- i get new injuries every now and then. an accident prone i am :( to make things worse, i get rescued every week, and the lifeguard/instructor went 'U AGAIN!' aix... i am infamous out at sea~~~~
in better news, this weekend wasn't totally wasted like always. though the progress of my revision was s-l-o-w, i guess i did some after all... time to start my project at midnight, which is due 3 days after~~~
it was raining in the later part of the day. i had the strong urge to alight from the bus and run in the rain. the air was cooling, and the wind was moderate. had i not just taken a bath, had i not injuried my leg, had i no work to do after i get home, i wouldn't hesitate. i love the rain, i love the cool air, i love the bronze sky...
i want freedom, i want my life!
6 NOVEMBER
it's scary when your laptop is making weird sounds every now and then... oh no, don't die soon ok! i've no resources and time to fix u! i am depending on u for my projects! hang on!!!
5 NOVEMBER
Deepavali!!! public holiday~~~
tried to study in the afternoon. well, success rate 20%. the greatest achievement was i got myself away from the laptop, but i went ransacking the refrigerator -.- i was eating non-stop!
anyway, evening onwards was great :D met up with the earlier batch of starhub friends to celebrate 2 persons' birthdays. it's really amazing how these gatherings actually brings people together. i've never worked with several of them and i wasn't close to most, except those who are my poly clique, but we eventually became friends through the gatherings and we are all getting along fine like i've known them for quite some time... i love this friendly and accomodating feeling. we can criticise each other yet no offense taken... why does everyone i met in university so far seem hostile? can't they just be like the starhub friends?
then after this gathering, i went to meet another group of starhub friends. most of these people were my colleagues months ago... i miss their company and the fun we had together! will there be another time?
today is boju's last day of work and we are out to celebrate his 'release' from hell :D he said he's really touched that we all got together for him. HAHA! there were 13 of us! there was never such a big gathering before! we had prata at blk 201! met yang wei, and i had to bicker with him! it just doesn't feel right when we are nice and polite with each other :p that's our relationship XD
we ate and chat (mainly about NS, again!) till 12.30am, and i had to leave. i need to rush for the last bus :p and hopefully get some work done before i report to bed...
we need to meet up in the december! i really miss u guys!
starhub job is crap! but the friends i made there was awesome :) i'm so glad i had the job. i've tried out several jobs before this, but this was the first time when the colleagues were all so united and friendly, at least the temp staffs and the few friendly perms. i've never known that i could make good friends at a workplace. guys, i love u *kisses*
3 NOVEMBER
seriously, we are such bimbos! we could have used the time to do our revision or projects, but we chose not to. instead, we painted each others' nails. grace and i are so awesome :x
2 NOVEMBER
how did u do that?! seriously, i need some self-discipline too!
my good friend always vanishes from the reality during school term, and even from the virtual world during exam preparation periods. can u teach me how? i'm addicted to facebook and msn!
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