31 DECEMBER
OMG, NEW YEAR IS COMING~~~ TYPING THIS AT 11.10PM!!!
30 DECEMBER
uncle david guided me on how to windsurf today. he was, well, trying to guide me back to shore. but stupid me, went parallel to the shore the whole time because i couldn't control my board and sail well. i was in weird position on the board and holding the sail in ways i am not used to. my back muscles ache, my arms arch, i'm beat! nonetheless, i shall try to perfect that next time! :D thanks uncle david for your patience... he didn't have to, since it was an unofficial training session and he is an allumni, joining us occasionally to surf...
awww, i hope he comes to surf more with us :D he seems... reserved for some reason, like so distant... but he is really nice :)
29 DECEMBER
it's about time i snap out of this! but how?!
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why do guys nowadays behave like old woman?! nag, grumble and long-winded! omg, go away, annoying!
27 DECEMBER
was looking at my friend's primary school gatherings photos. it seems they have gathering pretty much often, or maybe yearly? but it's definitely much more often than mine. i don't think i ever attended any, or am i notified? :x
i realised i've never had a sense of belonging. i suddenly feel so empty. my whole life, up till to secondary school, i've never appreciated the memories. primary and secondary school education, to me, was something mandatory, and i've never enjoyed it i guess. in addition, i think i hardly remember anything except those negative ones, like how my best friends betrayed me, how i got punished by the teachers, how the primary 2 maths teacher trapped me behind the door on purpose, etc.
just recently, my primary 5 and 6 friends initiated a class gathering on 19 December. again, i didn't attend. i couldn't. i have an exam the following day and i didn't want to risk that no matter how badly i wanted to attend. when i saw the invitation on facebook, i thought 'OMG, how many years since we last met? really feel like meeting everyone once again and see how all of us have changed and getting on with life.' and i feel... ... OLD!
i started appreciating life a little after secondary school i think, when i was so afraid my friendships with chu, zhi and jelly will fade off, like all that happened from primary school. after primary school graduation, everyone just kind of lose touch, all went separate ways. it's like all our objectives were just to study and... leave. as if all the friendships were fake.
i was very anti-social back then. in secondary school, i only talk to those in my clique, the 5 of us. we are like in our own world. i don't go out, seldom talk to other classmates, CCA was a chore. all i needed was my family and this clique.
then in polytechnic, i opened up a little, i hang out and talk to people outside my clique, i go to gatherings even though i am not close to many others. then i started to love the company and the new experiences each time. people are... amazing :D
university... i think i can't be anymore sociable than what i was in polytechnic. i just hide at a corner at orientation camp, sms my close friends for comfort. omg, like some extra person in camp -.-
i wanted to join a CCA because i wanted university life to be more than just studying. i needed something... fun. i've never been a community person, but i thought i should try :) as i was browsing the list of CCAs available, i was prepared to drop out of my choice of CCA anytime because nothing looked interesting enough to keep me... i was discussing this with my friend, and he introduced this sport to me. I'm so thankful for your help. now i feel so happy everytime i think about going to CCA. this is a first for me :) university so far has brought many firsts for me, both good and bad.
26 DECEMBER
the waves today are big... was a little scared out at sea and afraid i don't know how to return back to shore. i've been dropping the sail so many times because the wind slightly stronger and i can't balance the wind and my body weight. uphauling so many times that blisters all appeared on my fingers! aix...
25 DECEMBER
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
went out with yong ann and nat today :D
japanese buffet first on the list! woohoo! getting my doze of sashimi, salmon, california maki finally! love it!
then shopping at Uniqlo... YA wanted to get clothes. omg, everyone, aren't u shocked?! i am! YA said he needs new clothes! and god, u should see how he intended to spend his money! like some tycoon?! he wanted to spend $200 on jackets! thanks to nat and i, we stopped him from squandering off all his money...
ok, this boy dragged us across orchard road in search of his ipod 'cause the shop at 313 somerset was sold out... he worked my muscles out, now they are all out-of-order...
there was lots of interesting things today--nat didn't want the waitresses to clear the plate of fish bones because she wants the gravy, nat and i were eating turkey meat at the bus-stop, the 3 of us eating turkey in the supermarket, crazy trying of jackets in Uniqlo, pulling YA's hair growing from a mole, etc. this can't get any better! :D
23 DECEMBER
i've always thought that everyone is different, so no matter what kind of person u are, i am fine with it. but each time u hurt me so deep. i think this is the furthest our friendship can go. i'm sorry, this is the most i can take. i've never felt so insulted, so untreasured, so unrespected. your 'i trusted u too much' and 'got cheated by u' was very hurtful. just because i suggested u can take a bus from tampines back home. the cab came to the chalet late, we missed the last train at pasir ris mrt station, took the bus to tampines instead and as a result from the long bus trip u miss your last bus from tampines. if i can predict all that was going to happen, i wouldn't have suggested. a piece of goodwill suggestion didn't turn out the way it should, and it's my fault. well, i do feel guilty that u missed your last bus. but as far as that goes, i don't deserve hearing u curse in front of me, say that to me, and give me bad attitude.
that aside, had a good time today :D met up with the starhub buddies and then alfred's birthday chalet... love the company! XD nothing feels better than hanging out with those i like :D
22 DECEMBER
windsurfing today is awesome! seriously good! i didn't make the PA water venture launch their rescue boats for me :p and i've got many people congratulating me for that. THANKS GUYS!
yeah, the wind is not to strong but not too light, just right. damn, i should have tried a bigger sail since there is wind...
the other pro guys left me and went flying on their boards to bedok jetty! oh, this is so not cool! i was still figuring out my directions and sail when they reached! omg, can someone teach me how to get my sense of directions? because this is such a hindrance in my life!
anyway, i sailed out to the open sea. the wind was calming, the scenery is nice, and i am a little tired. dropped my sail and sat on my board, looking out into the surroundings... and I NEARLY FELL ASLEEP! i jolted up and picked my sail and off i go again! i wouldn't want to waste the wind!
woohoo!!! at times, i was sailing perpendicular to the shore. at times, i am sailing parallel to the shore. had my fun and speed today :D didn't even take a break because i was just having too much fun! the sea, finally, in a month! and what's more, it's a weekday, so there was only us, NTU windsurfers out at sea! haha, no crowding :p
ok, after practice was dinner at Plaza Singapura Mahattan Fish Market. then... VERMONSTER at Cathay's Ben and Jerrys :D HAHA! 7 people, 20 scoops of ice-cream! satisfied! aijia is heading to Hong Kong for 6 months exchange programme, so she wanted to treat us ice-cream. Thanks girl!
did i mention, some helpful TRAINING COORDINATOR left all our Passion cards at PA water venture! that card functions as my ez-link card too! now i have to top up my flashpay -.- should have insisted that u give me a lift home! :p
21 DECEMBER
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY!!! :D
i love u! didn't kiss u enough today :( but the one on the bus was good XD i will get more when i meet u again :p
ok, went out with nat and yiru... long long since we went out! HAHA! shopping, eating... urban girls...
went to vivo and then orchard. NAT, JUST GET THAT BAG! IT'S SO CUTE! :D
got a lesson on organic food, gluten and wheat-free food and herbs. boy, is that interesting! learnt a little on food :) i shall keep a lookout on such things next time...
honey, i love it when we hold hands~~~
nat got me a beer mug from Germany! HAHA! time to drink!
20 DECEMBER
yes yes!!! i'm free i'm free I'M FREE!!!! haven't felt so confined and stressed since secondary school o'levels! woohoo~~~!!! friends, i'm available now!! :D
was so looking forward to freedom, but the taste of it immediately after exams just felt... normal :x
19 DECEMBER
i am so shocked at my own actions, but somehow i just don't have the motivation to start studying. my paper is the following day 9am, and here i am starting slow and steady and facebook-ing... this is crazy!
18 DECEMBER
received a small bag of snacks as christmas present cum post-exam binge from Melissa. awww, seriously, i'm falling in love with her. she's been helping me with school work throughout the whole semester and have been very patient with me.
anyone more rude than u would be wasting his life. u are almost there, keep it up.
AS ALWAYS, PISSED! WHY CAN'T U HAVE HIGHER EQ?! I WONDER WHAT ALWAYS GO THROUGH MY HEAD WHEN I INITIATE A CONVERSATION WITH U! SHORT CIRCUIT?!
FUCK!
chill chill, needs to be patient and kind, like Melissa. (wonder how she always does that?! it feels so beyond my ability)
17 DECEMBER
COCKROACH!!! FML! what's wrong with them?! can't they just die!!!
haha, this reminded me... months ago, after midnight, i was alone in the living room when everyone else is sleeping, and i saw a cockroach! i put down the hair-dryer which i was using and ran into my room and closed the door. since i left my handphone in the living, i used my sister's one which was in the room, AND I RANG MY BROTHER WHO IS NEXT DOOR. and i told him there is a cockroach in the living room, and i told him i am scared to leave my room but my handphone is outside. he kept comforting me that the cockroach is perhaps more afraid of me or it would have been gone by then. i finally agreed after some time and we hang up. he got out of his room to go to the toilet, and then returned to say that he didn't see the cockroach anywhere anymore.
HAHA!!! my brother is always so sweet to me. i felt like an idiot, but it's not like i want it. if anyone of u have seen my reaction to a cockroach, u would know of my fear.
if only i know how to repay u... u really saved me from this black hole that i've landed myself into. thought all is hopeless. i did many things in desperation, trying to save myself but nothing calm myself as much as u reaching out for me. i never know i can find someone like u in university. just hope we can be more than what we are now. i really love your company :D and u are just so different from me, so sweet, so kind, so thoughtful, that sometimes i feel ugly about myself. i'm in awe. love u!
16 DECEMBER
been thinking alot about my behaviour recently, and i kind of feel uneasy. i don't know, a moment i feel it's fine, the next i feel it's not. i don't know if i am right or wrong, where are my beliefs and principles. think i need this holiday to think through things. this is what happens when i don't have the comfort of my friends, i don't know where to head to, what to aim, who to talk about my problems, and i do things on impulse. dawn, huijun, jojo, yiru, nat, I MISS U GUYS! i wanna see u guys daily like before :'(
15 DECEMBER
met up with wing for lunch, and we intend to go to Malaysia via train from the Tanjong Pagar railway station within December this year or January next year. watched the tv, and oh god, the station going to stop operations on 1 July next year. must take the train and get the feel of... history :D
so we are planning a 1-day Malaysia trip! Woohoo~~~! it's so amazing how we just click again even after not meeting for so long! we've been friends since secondary 1! unbelievable eh? i remembered how she was mad at me for days because i called her a homosexual (when she is not). seriously, that was for fun, because my teacher was telling us about it. and to me back then, it was amusing. LOLLL! my bad, so immature. but well, we turned out to be good friends anyway :p
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*hokkien*
"huh, your mother runs out of battery at 2pm daily and needs recharging again? my mother charges her battery 24/7"
*hokkien*
my dad is funny~~~
LOLLLLL!
14 DECEMBER
arghhhhh!!! conquered 3 papers!!! 2 more to go! the latter is the good part, the bad thing is the first 3 papers are fried -.-
had my astronomy paper yesterday. crap! though is was all MCQ, it wasn't any more helpful. most of the questions are 'Which of the following is true/not true?' it's just so vague. and while making choices, i was thinking 'did the person who set the paper use the right terms?' because u know, mathematicians and scientists often aren't very good with their English terms, nor consistency. One of the choices was 'We all emit electromagnetic waves.' WE DO?! the lecture notes said we emit electromagnetic RADIATION. so how am i to know? i suck at physics, so don't do this to me!!!
in case any of u is ever considering taking astronomy, think thrice. it was hell for me! everytime i read the notes, i get more confused. i revised 4 days for this paper, but if u ask me what i've learnt, i can't name an :x yeah, astronomy is all physics and chemistry, and then best of all, DIRECTIONS (north, south, east, west)! and coincidentally, all these happen to be my weakness! the questions always go...
'U are standing at the equator. Where do u have to look to see Polaris, the North Star?
A: look upwards, and turn 30 deg east
B: look north
C: ...
D: ...
E: ...
These are effects of retrograde motion:
A: u appear to move eastwards in relation to the surrounding stars
B: the xxx appear to be moving backwards across the sky
C: the stars appear to be moving westwards
D: ...
E: ...
A light source emits green light. Which of the following is in alignment that the light source is moving towards the observer's naked eye:
A: the light appears to be red
B: the light appears to be blue
C: the light source appears to not be producing any light
D: ...
E: ...
(this question is about Doppler Effect)
yeah, WHERE IS THE NORTH, SOUTH, EAST, WEST?! WHERE IS THE HORIZON, MERIDIAN, ZENITH?! what is doppler effect?! what is angular momentum?! oh god, u must be joking me!
so i played guessing game for the exam, which constitutes 70% of my module grade. now how cool is that?! i am awesome!
the next 2 papers... O-M-G! I DIDN'T FINISH THE PAPERS, AGAIN?! totally relived all my secondary school nightmares! i haven't felt so insecure in ages! i just feel like crying :'(
anyway, i still failed to read my textbooks. ok, i read like 2 pages, and i HIGHLIGHTED the sentences! now i can't sell the book at good price! right before this, the book was ENTIRELY NEW I SWEAR! i didn't even flip it. wonder why i bought the book...
13 DECEMBER
i've never studied so hard in my life before, trust me! i spent 3 days on HG210 Bilingualism and Multilingualism, 3 days on HG102 Structures and Systems, and 4 days on Astronomy! is this even me?! i'm beyond recognition. though i aren't sure how the effectiveness of studying so early...
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知我者莫若你！
the moment i see my brother sign in msn messenger...
me: YOYO :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
brother: yo you very bored huh? lol
me: YES!!! -.-
HAHA! I LOVE U~~~!!! SO, KEEP ME ENTERTAINED!
chatting with your brother on msn is... so fun! :p
10 DECEMBER
omg, i just realised i've tons of revision left to do! it's 4 days to the paper and this is the first time i flip the notes and books! how cool can it get?! damn, i'm so screwed!
shit, this is so not happening! i just did something i shouldn't and now i'm feeling so guilty! it's eating into me, i can't concentrate on my studies! :'(
who can i talk to! T_T
i miss u when u are not here, but when u are here, i don't see u as someone special to me... weird?
8 DECEMBER
went to the market place for dinner with mum and dad... so many things have changed, the western food stall moved, the old coffee shop has a new look, the supermarket has been replaced by a chain supermarket, the chinese herb shop is under removation, etc. it's only been 2 or 3 months since i last visited and everything is different. i miss the old feel, the feel of 'hometown'. i remembered how i used to roam around the market place during my polytechnic education days. i walk through that place everyday, everything was so familiar... now all feel strange...
it's the first time since university semester started that i've stayed at home for 4 days. home feels... ... GOOD :) no wonder my friends have been telling me home feels the best. now i truly understand. i've always thought i've gotten used to staying in hall, but i guess home is irreplaceable. heading to hall the next day because stupid me left my books there, back to lonely and small place...
on a good note, a good friend is coming to my hall on 10 december :) looking forward to it... love it when people i love come look for me.
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'Hey Jason, come and see! your alicia is hot! she is wearing a red panties under her hot pink shorts!'
is this what the eldest sister should be shouting to her younger brother?! and what's with peeping under my shorts when i am sleeping on the sofa???
6 DECEMBER
can someone tell me why do i keep falling asleep?! it's annoying because i am not getting work done! zzz my schedule is all wrong already! -.-
realised from after recess week to the first week of december, i've completed 7 assignments/projects and 4 quizzes. omg, how cool is that! no wonder that period seemed so long and unbearable! thanks NTU for this nice experience!
5 DECEMBER
now, WILL EVERYONE STOP TELLING ME THAT U ARE STRESSED FROM STUDYING/ IT'S MUGGING TIME, ETC.?! i haven't even started my revision, and the stress from knowing u guys have started ages ago is so overbearing!
4 DECEMBER
so this is what it feels like to be drunk... and hangover sucks! queasiness, racing heartbeat, reduced judgement.
was supposed to meet chu, jelly and zhi at kranji mrt station at 8.45am to go to goat farm together, but dear me, drinking the whole night obviously overslept. jumped out of bed when chu gave me a call at 8.40am :x OMG, i'm so sorry!
haha! still couldn't walk straight when i got out of bed, and my face was flushed. went to toilet to pee. took off my bottoms and i thought 'why am i in someone else's shorts!' i need to find out what happened last night after i blackout.
anyway, i quickly brushed my teeth, got changed and ran out. took a cab to goat farm, lame shit. i only stayed there for about 10mins before we left... then we intended to go to bollywood veggies but we took the bus and was over-carried. we decided to just go to Lot 1 shopping mall instead, since the bus goes there.
went to pizza hut for brunch and celebrate jelly's birthday :D HAHA! had alot of fun talking nonsense :p but the whole time i felt sick in the stomach...
ok, was sms-ing the guys i drank with last night, and was told i vomitted all over his room and on his bed. now this is not cool! all i remembered was that we were drinking and chatting, then i went on msn with his computer, then we played drinking game, i puke after that and he took me to the toilet to bathe... woke up this morning in my own bed and clean clothes. he said i made my way back to my room after i bathed and apparently that means changing into my clothes myself.
bought the guy a cleaning agent to rid his bed off my vomit smell. I'M SO SORRY!
2 DECEMBER
yong ann called me during my astronomy lecture, but it's fine, since it was during the break :) ok, he asked for my particulars for some fishy business... just joking, it is for his sign on application, he needs referrals.
gave him all the info he needed to know except for the Chinese characters for my name. describing the characters is like painting in the air, difficult to visualise :p and so i sms-ed him the characters instead. and i got a call from him almost immediately after, and here is the conversation...
YA: hey, my hp not very advanced ah... your surname appeared as squares in the sms.
me: huh?! the squares are up and down, not left and right, right?
YA: yeah.
me: THAT'S MY SURNAME!
YA: haha! really?! i thought it's my hp problem, because u know when the devices can't recognise the characters, they will appear as squares. i didn't know such a word exist! if u give me 3 squares, i would know it's 品， if u give me 1 square i know it's 口. but if u give me 2, i don't know what is that :x
THANKS SO MUCH! sounds like my surname is some drawing with sqaures all over the place? HAHA! tsktsk, u need more Chinese lessons!
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