6 NOVEMBER
今朝ジョギングに行きました。いろな事を考えました。 I feel so stressed up and inferior. My coursemates all have grades that are better than me, and no matter what I do, I just don't fare well enough. I dislike studying actually, I feel so restricted and the essays are killing me. I always feel that I am not doing my best because of my wonderful procrastination. But given a second chance, I would probably do the same. I cannot stand studying and revising all the time. It is just not me to do it! I am forcing to do what I dislike, and it's eating up on me. What's more the results I get from it kills me a little each semester. I started wondering about the purpose of attending school. What it seems to be doing is killing people's confidence and putting everyone on a scale and assesssing them in this bias way. I realised that I have strayed from the purpose of education, and making life like hell for myself.
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