17 FEBRUARY 2013
ok, now that I have submitted my Language and Gender essay and get to sleep a little more, I have 'nightmares' throughout the night. seriously?! I dreamt that I was in the school library and looking for the textbook, but I couldn't find it no matter how hard I searched. I was anxious to find it, knowing I have alot of reading to do. And then, 7am in the morning, alarm rang. Woke up feeling, yet again, like I haven't slept. Thank you, love it! -.-"
Thinking about what FYP topics to do. OMG, I think I am running late for it, but I just can't come up with a topic!!! I'M LIKE IN PANIC MODE NOW!!! how do people even come up with one! just thinking about it makes my limbs go cold. SHOW ME SOME LIGHT AND GIVE ME SOME DIRECTIONS, PLEASE! I NEED IT!
16 FEBRUARY 2013
YAY! CHINESE NEW YEAR WEEK yeah, so lessons were cancelled throughout the week. and wonderful, a MAKE-UP lesson on this beautiful Saturday morning. Did I mention it starts at 9am at NTU. NTU isn't exactly next door u know?
Anyway, I checked my email in class and realised my lecturer has done me a favour, so I am free to join my friend's group for the group presentation. When I was about to do so on blackboard, I realised my friend's group has reached the maximum members allowed. WHO IS THE FUCKING EXTRA?! my friends told me they had a slot left for me to join. and so I checked and realised it's some random guy who joined. Got his contacts from someone and sms-ed to ask if he can join another group. He replied, rejecting my request. WTF IS WRONG WITH HIM?! no one invited him to join the group in the first place! zzz! in desperation and with no other available options, I joined a random group of year 2s. I was difficult to acccept the circumstances, accounting that I don't know any of those in my group and I haven't worked with strangers in donkey years, and what's more on a topic I am not familiar with. I was feeling angry and afraid at the same time. I couldn't concentrate in class anymore. But after a while, I learnt to accept it. 既来之， 则安之。 Just looking back the last few days, I realised it's like one thing lead to another and eventually to this situation, as if this was meant to happen.Whatever it is, let's see what it brings when the time comes :) I'm trying to learn the art of taking things in my stride and not be so stubborn with things. Maybe being a little more open-minded will bring new experiences. Cheers to my new positive thinking!
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