6 JULY 2013
I went out with Max today after about 1 year since our last meeting. We catch up by the beach and then went for dinner, and back to the beach for more chatting. In our conversation, he brought up some things I did or he did back when we had feelings for each other. I entered a trance for a while. My heart, then, suddenly wrenched up a bit and tears welled up in my eyes involuntarily (luckily I managed to hide it from him). I realised I have forgotten almost everything that happened then because the breakup was too painful, and now he selfishly relives those memories. I didn't expect him to remember them, I didn't expect myself to forget them. Nonetheless, why bring up the distant past when it serves no purpose anymore. Thanks to him, I vividly remembers the pain and at night when I recalled what happened, I teared again.
On a lighter note, recently I came to realise how well my brain has performed, how well it has protected me. I have conveniently forgotten things that caused me pain, this thing with Max and another episode with a selfish, self-centered, stingy, mean friend. I now truly understand how amnesia happens. Oh, le wonderful brain~~~
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